Richard Shindell

Careless

from Careless

When I lost you
It was April-May
I can't be more precise
I was drinking then
And the time-frame is a wash

But I lost you
Of that I am quite sure
All your reinforcements
All your messages
I got them all

Sure I was drinking
But that is no excuse
the drink brought out the worst in me
But the worst in me was me nevertheless

But I've learned to live with it now
But that doesn't mean forget
How careless I was with you then
You who were once my friend

We are our actions
Not our intentions
Mine were reprehensible
It's a heavy word
But nothing else will do

And so I keep them
Sometimes I take them out
I hold them up and look at them
To remind myself
Of how far I can fall

I've learned to live with it now
But that doesn't mean forget
How careless I was with you then
You who were once my friend
Careless, how could I have been
So careless with you, my friend?

updated: 10 months ago